"In all his life, he had never felt such a thing toward anyone before: utter disappointment. He wished he could beat him to death but that wouldn’t purge the anger in his heart."
"Addicted" (Chinese novel).
Да, именно так это ощущается. Как будто, бил бы и бил, кричал и кричал, и одновременно нет ни слов, ни действий. Осознание абсолютной бессмысленности буквально парализует, и нет ни слов, ни дел для этого человека.
"Why didn’t you believe me? You personally promised, but you couldn’t keep it.
Were my expectations of you too high?
Were you so good to me… so good that I couldn’t see any of your flaws? … so good that I believed every single word you said without any doubts.
So, when I uncovered your true innermost thoughts, it became unbearable just like now?"
В точку.