“Nah, not worthy,” replied Chanyeol, taking the knife away from his neck and smiling at him like a mischievous kid sharing a secret. The anger was quickly disappearing from his features and Baekhyun felt a shiver, goosebumps spreading from the place the blade had been in his neck. He felt both exhausted and mortified, still so sensitive that the mere graze of his shirt against his skin was making him tremble. Foamborn were the children of the storm, and he didn’t want to crave it, but yearn he did, ache until the point of physical pain. The burn, the kiss, Chanyeol’s fingers on his pale, humanlike skin. He understood now, why the elders of his kin always said that being what Baekhyun was was destructive. His body should not want what his heart despised, and yet it did, and the realization was scary. “Hey, come on, you look like you’ve just seen a ghost. Don’t make me feel bad, I was playing along because you started but I wasn’t going to take it any further. Calm down.”

"Children of the storm"
(EXO ff)

"...he touches Taemin the same way he rubs his own shoulders or adjusts his own hair in the mirror. A touch that’s so comfortable and familiar, his hands move while his mind is elsewhere."

From "this love isn`t crazy" by unconscious.

В точку! Именно так это и выглядит. То, как Кай трогает Тэмина.

"In all his life, he had never felt such a thing toward anyone before: utter disappointment. He wished he could beat him to death but that wouldn’t purge the anger in his heart."

"Addicted" (Chinese novel).


Да, именно так это ощущается. Как будто, бил бы и бил, кричал и кричал, и одновременно нет ни слов, ни действий. Осознание абсолютной бессмысленности буквально парализует, и нет ни слов, ни дел для этого человека.



"Why didn’t you believe me? You personally promised, but you couldn’t keep it.

Were my expectations of you too high?

Were you so good to me… so good that I couldn’t see any of your flaws? … so good that I believed every single word you said without any doubts.

So, when I uncovered your true innermost thoughts, it became unbearable just like now?"


В точку.

"Шелковая рубашка, слишком глубоко расстегнутая, цепочка на худых ключицах, тонкие губы в хищной усмешке, острые высокие скулы, узкие глаза. Красив странной, отталкивающей красотой."

Описание Вегаса из фф "Амант".

A Tanagura Blondy and a slum mongrel. It was as if Iason was a box of secrets, and Riki was the only key that could open it.
Katze spoke matter-of-factly.
"You may have a hard time accepting it, but some love can only be expressed that way. Perhaps that was the case with them."
A form of love...?


"AnK."

If something was blossoming in Apatia that could have managed to break through the insurmountable wall between a pet and his master, then what Guy did was all the more unforgivable.



"AnK."

He also hated how powerless he was. He knew how implacable and insurmountable Iason’s will was. No matter how much he tried, there was nothing he could do to diminish the power imbalance between them.



"AnK."

Keeping a slum mongrel as a pet, moving him to Apatia, and then putting him to work on the black market. Even if Jupiter voiced no concerns over any of this, Iason did think on occasion that he was perhaps taking things a bit too far. Still, Iason himself chose this remarkably human relationship between himself and Riki. To not worry about the eyes of others but to spend time with him, in a human sense...


"AnK."

On KatzeNo matter how many times Riki told himself this, he couldn’t help but get worked up as soon as he opened his mouth. It was times like these he was envious of Katze's iron composure, an incarnation of rationality and self-control.


"AnK."

"I'm telling you to be more aware of your situation."
"Aware of what? I’m perfectly well aware that I am his fucking pet..."
"No, Riki. I am saying that you are the one who's dragged a Blondy, a man who's the very incarnation of pride, down to the level of a mere sexaroid."
As if Katze had slapped him across the face, Riki’s eyes opened wide.
"For Iason to bed you is exactly that. One of the most powerful men in Tanagura lusting after a lowly slum mongrel. Have you ever wondered what that means?"
At that moment, Riki felt a stabbing pain in his temples.
Iason... lusting after me?
Riki had never thought about it.
Because for Riki, sex with Iason was never a matter of choice. Iason was the absolute ruler, and Riki was nothing but a pet who couldn’t even assert his basic rights.
"For a Blondy, this is the ultimate disgrace!" Katze asserted.
Hearing Katze—whose relationship with Iason was much deeper than his own—say this, Riki was lost for words.
"Still, Iason knows this and chooses to keep you. And on top of that, grants you this unprecedented level of freedom. I want you to be aware of just how much risk Iason is assuming for your sake."
And with that, Katze turned back to his desk and got back to work, as if nothing had happened.
Iason, assuming a risk? For my sake?
It felt to Riki like someone had punched him and then roundhouse-kicked him in the back of the head.
Up until now, Riki thought of himself as someone whose life was taken over by Iason who then forcibly
twisted it out of shape. Some part of the blame certainly fell on Riki, but he had never volunteered to become a pet.
So when Katze said Riki was responsible for dragging Iason to the level of a sexaroid, he was completely taken aback.
What did he mean, Iason feeling lust? Iason... assuming a risk?
Riki’s face slowly drained of color as he mulled these words that were thrust right in his face.



"AnK."



I feel, like this is either a mistranslation, or a somewhat misdirected point of view on Katze`s part. Iason is hardly doing what he does FOR Riki. Because of him, yes. But not FOR him. That he chooses to hurt himself in the process is a choice of what`s better for Iason himself. Riki is still very much an object of the infatuation, not a person with feelings, interests and a free will. Let`s hope, that Katze is just pointing out, how much Iason sacrifices to keep Riki by his side, which is unusual and damaging as hell, and if Iason is still doing it, then Riki must be truly important and needed.